These things have been on my mind for the past couple of days. You don't have to read them.
To begin with, I feel like a big weight has been lifted off my chest but I still feel empty like a huge part of me is missing. It's so strange to do something for so long and then realize that you are just fine without doing it. It's hard to realize that you dont HAVE to do that one thing in order to maintain sanity.
On another note, I've realized that I honestly couldn't survive without my two best friends by my side. One is caring, understanding, and teaches me life lessons through her mistakes. We are complete opposites yet we have such a strong bond. I trust her more than any other person in the world. The other is like my sister. We are so alike in everyway. I always know whats on her mind and she always knows whats on mine. She practically lives at my house and we share our families. I don't know what I would do without her.
Finally, I don't know why he is always on my mind. I can't understand how I can still think about him. Maybe It's because he was the first to ever break my heart. Will the thoughts of 'us' ever go away? Do I honestly still have feelings for him? I can't. I just can't. I have to stop talking to him. I can't let myself get attached again. It was so hard to get to the point I'm at now. I can't go back to the past.
I decided to comment since 100 people have visited my site. I'm thrilled. I love DA and I have seen myself grow artistically in the week that I have been involved here! Thanks for everyone who has commented and enjoyed my art so far!
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